so meant a great guy a few years back... we both had our personal lives to sort out but still I had one of those wow, this person really gets me kind of moments. He said he did too. wrote me hundreds and hundreds of emails while overseas. things were always great when we saw one another, but we rarely saw one another. now this past year... our lives have both changed. we've cut away other personal ties which would leave one to assume we would be free to further pursue our own relationship but the complete opposite has happened. it is so perplexing! and it isn't even like I'm looking for the happily ever after ring on the finger type of scenario, but I feel like I lost one of my best friends too. It is like all that time out there across the ocean on some unnamed base in one of those random countries we all know about for the wrong reasons and now all the pressures of being back state side and what not has just the life out of him. trips me out. the passion he had is gone. did it slip between his fingers like sand does? it sure seems to have slipped between mine. so here it is pretty much my birthday... 3am the morning of, and I'm wondering... just can't help but to wonder, is he going to call or email or txt? haven't heard from him in weeks. haven't seen him in months, but still... can't help but wonder. wish my feelings were more easy to control.
so meant a great guy a few years back... we both had our personal lives to sort out but still I had one of those wow, this person really gets me kind of moments. He said he did too. wrote me hundreds and hundreds of emails while overseas. things were always great when we saw one another, but we rarely saw one another. now this past year... our lives have both changed. we've cut away other personal ties which would leave one to assume we would be free to further pursue our own relationship but the complete opposite has happened. it is so perplexing! and it isn't even like I'm looking for the happily ever after ring on the finger type of scenario, but I feel like I lost one of my best friends too. It is like all that time out there across the ocean on some unnamed base in one of those random countries we all know about for the wrong reasons and now all the pressures of being back state side and what not has just the life out of him. trips me out. the passion he had is gone. did it slip between his fingers like sand does? it sure seems to have slipped between mine. so here it is pretty much my birthday... 3am the morning of, and I'm wondering... just can't help but to wonder, is he going to call or email or txt? haven't heard from him in weeks. haven't seen him in months, but still... can't help but wonder. wish my feelings were more easy to control.
Hello Sarah all I can say is you control you emotions and how you react to others it is a thinking process to attain self awareness. Like letting something go to see if it will come back if not it just was not meant to be. You have to look at every door and window and kep the mind and eyes wide open. Life is good. Peace.
Hello Sarah all I can say is you control you emotions and how you react to others it is a thinking process to attain self awareness. Like letting something go to see if it will come back if not it just was not meant to be. You have to look at every door and window and kep the mind and eyes wide open. Life is good. Peace.
you ever had one of those times in life where negativity seems to come around every corner? Dude I am so there. I am such an upbeat positive outlook type of person too, so this is all really big time. Truth is there is always negative stuff but I can almost always face it with a smile-- that is what most people like about me. this month though... wow, just one thing after another till now it is even the little things that are getting to me. so many big blows that even the little ones hurt. I need a little TLC I think. I've tried the whole lets take a moment for yourself thing and guess what, it freaking blew up in my face. baby sitter fell threw, both friends ended up getting sick. I'm telling ya all the fates are against me in this one. perhaps for you believers out there there is a mystical force at work trying to keep me at home and keep me safe, but man it seems like we could find a better way to do that oh great ones! I just want to lighten up a little... lighten my load... whatever, basically I'm looking for some light! lol! some cheer, some happiness. is it asking too much?
you ever had one of those times in life where negativity seems to come around every corner? Dude I am so there. I am such an upbeat positive outlook type of person too, so this is all really big time. Truth is there is always negative stuff but I can almost always face it with a smile-- that is what most people like about me. this month though... wow, just one thing after another till now it is even the little things that are getting to me. so many big blows that even the little ones hurt. I need a little TLC I think. I've tried the whole lets take a moment for yourself thing and guess what, it freaking blew up in my face. baby sitter fell threw, both friends ended up getting sick. I'm telling ya all the fates are against me in this one. perhaps for you believers out there there is a mystical force at work trying to keep me at home and keep me safe, but man it seems like we could find a better way to do that oh great ones! I just want to lighten up a little... lighten my load... whatever, basically I'm looking for some light! lol! some cheer, some happiness. is it asking too much?
you deserve happiness. I feel for ya - been there - but believe it is not a mistake in life that this happened - God has something better in store for you! make a wonderful birthday wish for YOU!
you deserve happiness. I feel for ya - been there - but believe it is not a mistake in life that this happened - God has something better in store for you! make a wonderful birthday wish for YOU!
